Archives 2013

I received my diploma!  School is officially done.  I have been applying to jobs with no luck, will be getting my FB page up soon thought to hopefully sell my work.  I just completed a project for my sister-in-law!

Part of my moving forward in health and over all life is trying to forgive and forget, and hope she complies.   Will post pics tomorrow!  Knitting and crocheting is a relaxing form of art for me (unless I hit knots and spend hours untying before I can continue the project). I also do embroidery and somewhat sew.   A new project I’ll be working on soon-is another t-shirt quilt!  I feel these types of art are 3D concrete forms of working through my anger anxieties (insert emotion here).  Embroidery is also like painting with thread.   The images words and colors all match what I need to express.

So, for anyone interested (I don’t get notified of comments through phone and haven’t checked my last entry) I have a new Facebook page!  “Samanthas fine art and portraiture” so far there are no images but I’m hoping to have albums up and figure out PayPal or Etsy (maybe both) by the end of the week.  Yay for parttime employment of sharing my talents!  Feel free to share my page with family and friends, I look forward to working with you!

So excited to be done.  Slowly destressing, feeling aches and pains come and go.  So glad I’m on my anxiety pills.  The difference is amazing.  No, I don’t feel drugged, but I can think and aren’t worrying all the time and get sleep!!!

I realized though that I posted my art pics but didn’t include a description.  They are the processing of moving forward.  My inner conflicts between the past pain and anxieties and discovering new things feelings and activities that I couldn’t do before. Discovering myself and being able to accept my past forgive and accept that I was given a second chance to move forward; and while moving forward is frightening it is also exciting!

Haven’t tried yet but want to

Ingredients:

Microwave mug for 1min.

School is down to less than 30 days!  Homework is finally coming to a close and I’m so glad I’m on my new anxiety medication you all have no idea! My paintings are almost ready to be turned in, have to figure out how to hang and finish painting the edges *for a framed look*   will find out Thursday which are accepted and will post by Friday!

I went to a Connecticut annual counseling conference and sat through trauma informed care expressive arts workshop led by Cathy Malchiodi.  Here was a personal project I did during our art exercise.

It was my tree of self-empowerment to cope with my survivor guilt at times.  We had to do a tree which can represent the person and had to write something positive either in words about ourselves or something we wished was better (body image, worry etc.)

I formed a tree with my hands. Used scrap book paper with hearts and xoxoxo. And tissue paper. On the inside of the leaves wrote words of love and encouragement to remember when thoughts of ” why did I get chosen to live and not that kid or that dad? ” Enter my mind.

Sweet potato lasagna and spinach.

I received this recipe from someone I work with.

Boil sweet potato like potatoes. Mash them

Layer In casserole dish. Potato, ground beef/tomato mixture, shredded cheese. Repeat.   Bake 350 for 20 minutes.

This turned out just like regular lasagna with noodles! I almost wish I had more cheese though. Make sure you mash the potato really good unless you don’t mind random chunky parts!

I decided to put away my mixed media painting for now and work on a different type of painting.  It’s a style that our gallery director liked and told me to reproduce for my final art show.

I originally started the series during my painting course last fall as an experimentation with watercolors.   this winter I decided to add layers in acrylic and came up with pretty cool externalized version of my “inner conflicts” when thinking of my experience with cancer.

To me cancer was a name for the pain and the chemo was a way to take away the pain.  Yes, I realize now how close I was to death, but it never felt like that at the time.    For me I came up with this saying that describes the paintings exactly, whether it came from somewhere idk, but I consider it my own.

“Don’t forget the past, but don’t let it haunt the future.”

Omg. Allergies are a bitch.  Thank you, Claritin!   Feel like I was hit by a bus, sore throat, itchy watery eyes.  Thankfully the Claritin was able to help me go out with friends last night (the movie Oz was great!) And walking around the mall and dinner was fun to.

But today I ended up sleeping most of the day and still have homework to do.  And I swear the place I live has mold because I feel worse inside.

Happy Easter all! Hope yours was allergy free 🙂